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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I Can't Even Miscarry Properly

I swear, it's DAYS and DAYS later and I'm not done with this process. I've barely made any progress - like some sick labor that just takes it's time without result.
I went to the obstetrician's office and they took blood to make sure my "levels" are coming down.

What if they aren't?

I'm now on a new drug, designed to "help my Uterus progress" with this process.

The annoying thing is I still feel some of the pregnancy things, the nausea, the swollen boobs. I just want them to go away. I just want it out of me. I don't want to feel like this - these things I was cherishing despite their ickiness are now just ugly reminders of what went wrong.

At this point I'd welcome the cramps from hell if they would just BRING the process on. And let me be done. I don't think it's asking too much for my body to cooperate here. But it seems like in this process, as in all others, it's not working as efficiently as it used to.


Lumpyheadsmom said...

I am so, so sorry.

Anonymous said...

oh, hon. Here's hoping you get the progress you want.

Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah said...

That sucks so bad.

I'm sorry.

Shonda Little said...

I am so sorry. I just had a miscarriage a few weeks ago and mine was also very, very odd. I never cramped and the bleeding could be described AT BEST as light. In fact, it kinda kept me in denial that I was having a miscarriage at all.
As my friend (who's also had a miscarriage) said, don't feel like you can't mourn this. It is still a loss.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry...
I had a miscarriage a few years ago and decided to go for the D&C because I had heard of this happening. Things just not progressing and it lasting forever.
It is never easy to go through this, but it is even harder when you can't get past this part. I hope, as the other Kristen said, you get the progress you want soon!