6:27 AM

There is a large human male to my right snoring. There is a smaller human male, much smaller, to my left, sleeping on my arm. There is a human female laying on top of me, clutching a stuffed tiger named Tigger. There seems to be a matchbox car on my shoulder, possibly a book.

This isn't that unusual. It's not actually in any of those parenting books, but I'm sure someone somewhere would call it attachment parenting. Personally, I just call it parenting. Is there detachment parenting? I digress...

I lay there, swaddled in humans, and take stock of how I feel.

I haven't had an awesome few days, and I didn't post because really oh my GOD can I really continue to post "Hey I feel bad and now I went to THIS doctor" ? Even I am weary of it.

I had to take an antivert pill on Monday night, because the vertigo was creeping up on me, but I forgot I had decided to take only half a pill and thus spent the last 24 hours mostly in a fog. Antivert is a hell of a drug. It's the opposite of cocaine I suspect. It's a bit of medical irony, I finally get my exhaustion and fatigue under control with vitamin D and now I have to take a pill that puts me right back into that place and then some.

I realized, glancing at the clock again, that I actually felt quite good. So the pill had worn off. Put this on the check list of good things so far today.

The other thing I noticed was, my foot didn't hurt. The story on my foot is that I have a mostly healed stress fracture and severe tendinitis but my physical therapist called it tendinosis which she says is, like worse, so whatever. My foot is hurty. I am now doing physical therapy to make it less hurty. I did my first physical therapy yesterday and learned that ice can burn. NOT A FAN OF THAT.

But, something they did must've worked because it doesn't much hurt today. It only hurts a wee bit today as I've walked a bit now.

I've got Heath bar flavored coffee creamer and, I feel pretty good for the first time in days. So far, the only bad part of my day was having to unwrap myself from my tiny and big humans and climb out of that snuggle factory of a bed.

But even that wasn't so bad. I get to get back into it again tonight, and there will be snuggles.

It feels like it's going to be a pretty good day.

random picture. because I can. :)


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6:27 AM

There is a large human male to my right snoring. There is a smaller human male, much smaller, to my left, sleeping on my arm. There is a human female laying on top of me, clutching a stuffed tiger named Tigger. There seems to be a matchbox car on my shoulder, possibly a book.

This isn't that unusual. It's not actually in any of those parenting books, but I'm sure someone somewhere would call it attachment parenting. Personally, I just call it parenting. Is there detachment parenting? I digress...

I lay there, swaddled in humans, and take stock of how I feel.

I haven't had an awesome few days, and I didn't post because really oh my GOD can I really continue to post "Hey I feel bad and now I went to THIS doctor" ? Even I am weary of it.

I had to take an antivert pill on Monday night, because the vertigo was creeping up on me, but I forgot I had decided to take only half a pill and thus spent the last 24 hours mostly in a fog. Antivert is a hell of a drug. It's the opposite of cocaine I suspect. It's a bit of medical irony, I finally get my exhaustion and fatigue under control with vitamin D and now I have to take a pill that puts me right back into that place and then some.

I realized, glancing at the clock again, that I actually felt quite good. So the pill had worn off. Put this on the check list of good things so far today.

The other thing I noticed was, my foot didn't hurt. The story on my foot is that I have a mostly healed stress fracture and severe tendinitis but my physical therapist called it tendinosis which she says is, like worse, so whatever. My foot is hurty. I am now doing physical therapy to make it less hurty. I did my first physical therapy yesterday and learned that ice can burn. NOT A FAN OF THAT.

But, something they did must've worked because it doesn't much hurt today. It only hurts a wee bit today as I've walked a bit now.

I've got Heath bar flavored coffee creamer and, I feel pretty good for the first time in days. So far, the only bad part of my day was having to unwrap myself from my tiny and big humans and climb out of that snuggle factory of a bed.

But even that wasn't so bad. I get to get back into it again tonight, and there will be snuggles.

It feels like it's going to be a pretty good day.

random picture. because I can. :)


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Vertigo-Go-Go

So I've been weeks without a Brain Cloud.

I've had cat scan and MRI and EEG and slapped it on a bing bong and basically, the neurologist said hrrrrmmm yeaaaaah...we dunno. He said it's prolly vertigo and I got some pills called "anti-vert", suggested I find an ENT and off I went.

I've had this and that and the other thing to deal with since then and I kind of put it out of my mind. Then yesterday as I was getting Charlie ready for school, I closed the bedroom door and the hallway shifted. Sideways.

The floor came up to meet me and I called for the husband, because I had to hold on to the floor as the world was heaving quite a bit and I was being forced to ride it.

He jumped out and ran to the medicine cabinet to get my pills and gave me one, helping me to bed where I fell asleep for about 30 minutes.

I felt better when I woke up. Much. So I showered and went on with my day. I just felt sort of tired and worn out. Except that, it didn't end. I felt as though I'd just done some sort of farmer-level task all day, and every muscle in my body couldn't go another mile.

After I made it through my work day I got home and crawled in to bed until 8pm.

My take aways are this. I gotta make that appointment with the ENT I guess. It might be something fixable according to what I read yesterday (yay for the internets). I get a warning, this tingling numbness at the base of my skull proceeds it. That's enough warning to sit down, pull over, etc. I took a moment, sitting at the stop light yesterday, to teach the oldest boy to put the car in park. I realized, I could be driving, and pass out or something crazy, he might need to know this. It's unlikely as I have never passed out but - I wanted him to KNOW what to do.
I also am gonna only take a half an anti-vert next time as I felt like I was gonna cry or die or both all day.

It's annoying as hell. I mean who gets VERTIGO (my mom). It sounds made up and stupid. Therefore of course I get it.

At this point, I'm just hoping I don't get THE BIRDS or REAR WINDOW.

I hear REAR WINDOW is a pain in the ass.

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Vertigo-Go-Go

So I've been weeks without a Brain Cloud.

I've had cat scan and MRI and EEG and slapped it on a bing bong and basically, the neurologist said hrrrrmmm yeaaaaah...we dunno. He said it's prolly vertigo and I got some pills called "anti-vert", suggested I find an ENT and off I went.

I've had this and that and the other thing to deal with since then and I kind of put it out of my mind. Then yesterday as I was getting Charlie ready for school, I closed the bedroom door and the hallway shifted. Sideways.

The floor came up to meet me and I called for the husband, because I had to hold on to the floor as the world was heaving quite a bit and I was being forced to ride it.

He jumped out and ran to the medicine cabinet to get my pills and gave me one, helping me to bed where I fell asleep for about 30 minutes.

I felt better when I woke up. Much. So I showered and went on with my day. I just felt sort of tired and worn out. Except that, it didn't end. I felt as though I'd just done some sort of farmer-level task all day, and every muscle in my body couldn't go another mile.

After I made it through my work day I got home and crawled in to bed until 8pm.

My take aways are this. I gotta make that appointment with the ENT I guess. It might be something fixable according to what I read yesterday (yay for the internets). I get a warning, this tingling numbness at the base of my skull proceeds it. That's enough warning to sit down, pull over, etc. I took a moment, sitting at the stop light yesterday, to teach the oldest boy to put the car in park. I realized, I could be driving, and pass out or something crazy, he might need to know this. It's unlikely as I have never passed out but - I wanted him to KNOW what to do.
I also am gonna only take a half an anti-vert next time as I felt like I was gonna cry or die or both all day.

It's annoying as hell. I mean who gets VERTIGO (my mom). It sounds made up and stupid. Therefore of course I get it.

At this point, I'm just hoping I don't get THE BIRDS or REAR WINDOW.

I hear REAR WINDOW is a pain in the ass.

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